Yea though I walk thru the World in Fatness

I continue to crave foods. That is what is astounding to me when I decide to diet I crave everything. I very rarily if ever crave foods of any type.

When I am craving something it is usually something else going on. Good example, five years ago I craved dungeness crap legs in the worse way. I had to have them I ate them for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was always in the papers looking for the sales so I could get 5-10 pounds. I never wanted to run out. My sister and I used to laugh about that craving, my mother being superstitious would always say someone in the family was pregnant when she dreamed about fish. Heck I didn't have to worry about that I wasn't dreaming about fish I was eating it and enjoying every minute of it. Then one afternoon I received the phone call that would stop my cravings for those crabs in it's tracks. My daughter called to let me know she had just left the Dr's office and was having a baby. Ha! She seemed to be surprised? You can imagine my surprise. The bottom line to this story, I never ate dungeness crabs again. In fact I had about 5 pounds in the freezer but I could not get them down. It is really strange how things work...did I forget to mention that prior to that craving period I hated dungeness crabs? I thought they looked nasty and did not want to touch them. Oh well after call the cravings were gone and to this day 5 years later I will not eat dungeness crab legs. Now here it is 5 years later and I am craving crab legs again this time snow crab clusters, I have always loved them. My sister has warned me some one may be having a baby. Oh well even if that happens I hope I don't lose my love for snow crab legs!

Fathers Day has come and gone and with that day alone i feel I have gained 10 pounds. I am not going to share what it is I did gain. Today is Tuesday and I have started a new way of eating this week. let's see what happens with this. I will share later.

Exercising will kill me or heal me.

Just got back from my 2 mile walk. Actually it is becoming easier. I aspire to get to 4 miles and I know I will make it. Tuesday I ached so bad I could barely move. I blamed it on the walking. But who am I fooling the walking is what I need to do in order to get this weight off. It is the weight that is making me wake up in pain. That and sitting on the couch most of the day. Blogging and facebook can become addictive. While I am here typing this blog my husband is in the kitchen fixing potatoes, ham, and eggs. Now I will try not to have any but the will power is weak. Since it is weak the next thing I need to do is make sure I am eating smaller portions. I will get a small plate(I read that is the way to go , in fact everything you read or hear about dieting says the same thing "smaller portions"). You ever see the commercial where the man and woman started a diet and the results for the man is positive and for the woman is negative? That is Greg and I. He and I are changing our eating habits together. He looks like he is loosing weight I look like I am gaining weight. He and I walk in a room and everyone tells him how nice he looks and they can see he is losing weight. LOL, there I stand still the blob. Oh well have to work harder I know the hard work will pay off just slower for me.


Ok It is now 10:30 PM and I am worried that I won't weigh in right (less weight) at weight watchers. I think when I just think about food I gain weight. Something is wrong with me. I am not a real big eater but yet I get heavier. Oh well I may go to weight watchers tomorrow but maybe just maybe I won't weigh in.

You can go out to dinner and watch what you eat!

Hi, This is me two pounds lighter. Hard to see a difference don't you think? I have a long way to go.

One of the hardest things for me when dieting is knowing what to eat when I go out.
I hate to go out seems like once I am out dining out comes up and I find it difficult to watch what I eat. I know It's not fair to everyone else but what can I do. . Hm mm what to do? what to do? Yes I have my dining companion from weight watchers and I always start out with good intentions. Just seems like when I get to where I am going I forget about the diet and making wise choices. Ha at the time that I am ordering it seems to be a wise choice, maybe not the right choice but wise.
Sunday my family wanted to go visit with my sister and her family. At first I thought nah, I have to watch what I eat and when I go there I forget my diet. Oops, there I go thinking about me, it is not always about me. While I may think so not all others do and how selfish is that. I had to think of something. So like Pinky Dinky Doo I decided to think and think and think and suddenly I knew.(I guess you can tell from that sentence what TV shows I watch.) Wow, I thought let's surprise them with a visit and dinner. No call nothing just show up. So we packed up the meal and we headed to Delaware. Middletown that is.
My husband attended an affair the week before and returned with a vegetable salad that he thought I would like, he was right I did. We went with making a Salad and Kabobs. Talk about easy and quick. I found the recipe in the children' s section of the newspaper under Rookie Cookie's recipe. Since it was under the Kids section I let my granddaughter make the salad. (teaches her to read and measure).She had so much fun doing it. This salad is healthy, filling , convenient and good to eat. You can make it and snack on it all day.
It is so much easier to stay committed to a diet when all of the family is involved in it.

While Asia was making the salad I put the ingredients together for the kabobs.
Oh well I did say I am no cook, when Greg saw the size of the vegetables I cut up he said they were too small for kabobs, no worries we changed to shrimp stir fry.

When I got to my sister's house I called her to see what she was doing and told her Greg and I were riding around trying to decide where to eat. Imagine her surprise while talking to me I walk thru the door. LOL this is where we decided to eat. 2 hour drive for dinner.

And guess what I was able to go out to dinner, visit with family and still stuck with my diet choices for the day. Success!

Below is the recipe if you would like to try it...

Corny Vegetable Salad

1 (15-25) can corn, drained
1/2 cup red or green bell pepper,diced
1/2 cup tomatoes, chopped
2/3 cup cucumber,chopped
1/3 cup light Italian salad dressing

what to do
Combine drained corn and vegetables in a medium size bowl
Pour Italian dressing over top and stir to combine
Chili for several hours to blend flavors, serves four

Who added the T to Die?

Two Pounds down and working to reach my Goal

2 Pounds down and I am happy!

I had to do the dreaded thing and go to weight watchers on Saturday to weigh in. I mentioned before that I am a fallen life time member which if you don't know, means I am back to weekly meetings. I actually skipped the week before because I knew the scale had not gone down but had gone up. Pushed myself to go last weekend because I needed to face the music.
The thing I like about weight watchers is the support sytem and the encouragement you get from others success. I said that I weighed 183 but that was from my scale at home which does not match the scales used at weight watchers. Since I will be showing my weight loss progression weekly I will do it based on the weekly results given there. When I commit to something I strive to do my best. The summer time is just so hard to keep the committment.

Day 5 and no real progess.

Today is Friday, day 5 and I don't have any great news to report. I still have not decided on what diet I should start. There is so many different ones out there and most work as long as you stick to them and include exercising. Well for this week I have been fasting and not taking in any solids before 5:00 pm. Guess that would be good if i didn't make up for it after 5PM. LOL!
I guess with the house being so hot for two days it was also hard to stick to the diet. I ate of all things ice-cream, I very rarely eat ice cream so I guess this week was a rare one because i consumed a lot of ice-cream. Oops! I found myself eating right out of the carton anything to cool off. There goes any sense of a diet. Yup you know it, I got on the scale each day and to-date show only 1 pound difference. Yuk! I have to weigh in tomorrow at weight watchers and I am afraid I will weigh in on the upside not the down side as I wish to do (I will keep you posted).

I received another advertisement in the mail regarding 4 things you need to do in order to lose weight. Hm, as usual I decided to send for it and see what it is about. I will let you know what is is and whether or not I tried it. I am really leaning towards a protein diet for a while since I have soooooo much meat in the house. I really should consume it so it does not go to waste.

I coudn't decide on what diet to start today. But start I must. Look at me.

OK, here it goes this is day one of me trying once again to loose the weight. Seems like you don't realize how big you are until you see yourself in pictures. You say WOW ! is that really me? Yup it is you all 183 lbs. I cannot believe it. I have 30 lbs that I want to loose and a hard road to get there. You can follow and support me on this blog if you have a desire to loose weight or if you have been there and want to walk the journey with me. I have found that for me just a good support system can get me to where I need to be.
Since I could not yet decide I decided to eat light until I could make up my mind which way to go. The summer is the hardest time to stick to a diet. Barbecues, Parties and just good eats.
I think about Atkins because I can eat all the meat I want and eliminate all/most of the carbs..but then I think heck sometimes i will want that chip, slice of bread and or any of the other good things I have to give up.
I think why not Weight Watchers heck I am a life time member and as I said before it worked for me. I stopped following the change of eating and tracking what I eat and that is fatal.

Cooking Thin seems like it might be good but you know if you don't cook it will be hard to cook yourself thin. I have to convince my husband to cook for me. He might do it since I am always expressing my dissatisfaction with my looks.

I didn't do to bad for my first day this is all I had for the day other then a small burger on whole grain wheat bread. Didn't think to take a picture of that. I ate it as fast as I made it.


I always start my day like this....The Green daily Detox and the Acai Berry juice. When you don't eat properly I learn that the body does not work properly. You loose something to gain something.

V-8 Juice is my daily intake for vegetables. I always have a hard time getting in my 5 vegetables and fruits. This is the way I get in my Fruit. I fix a smoothie with Weight Watcher smoothie mix. I use this one because it is made with water. I add Whey, Fiber, Flax seed and Frozen Fruit. Now if you never tried this you should this is really great and taste good. My favorite flavor of Whey is chocolate and my smoothie choice is chocolate. It is like getting in a chocolate fix without all the calories.
I know that portion size is important so this is the ice-cream I had for today. It was so hot in my house. Did I forget to mention that the air conditioning in my house is not working and of course the service people are not able to get to me until tomorrow after 2PM.

Today is Sunday 5:32 PM. I am just so frustrated with my body and don't know what to do about it. I know I need to, (a) diet? (b)change my way of eating? (c)count carbs? (d)exercise? Do something. Hence my frustration. Remember I said before I have been dieting since I was 16? The problem with me is I can't pick any one and stick to it. I go from one diet to another, that is crazy. You would think if you find one that works you would stick to it. I lost 50 pounds on Atkins, I lost 50 pounds on weight watchers. Back in the day when they had the really good diet pills I was always small. In fact I stayed small but once i stopped taking those things, (well they stopped being available). the weight problems begun.
I hate putting clothes on these days I don't feel like I look good. My husband is a wonderful person and is so patient with me. He has never called me fat and is smart enough not to engage in conversation when I start to talk about how big and fat I am.(which I have been doing a lot lately). Weight has always been an obsession of mine, you would think I would maintain control before I get to this point.
I hit the scales every morning and every night..so you see how obsessed I am. It is miserable when you live by the scale. A scale can take over your life. I also try every diet out there but don't stick to any one long enough to make a difference.
I just got the book called "Cook Yourself Thin" once again something new and I go for it.
Well I have been looking at the recipes and find some that look like they may be good. I will try them but not sure how I will get thin by cooking.
Today I am going to make a decision and start a diet, not sure which one. I will post it tomorrow since that will be day one.
I needed to get this down and if you are reading this blog and want to comment on this feel free.

That's right I said it. There has been a T added to Die and no one has noticed. I have finally figured it out. To Diet means to Die. I should know I have been dieting for more then 40 years. 40 years of die-ing and still have not reached my goal. I know I am not alone there has to be many others out there like me who would like to speak their mind. Lets talk about what works and what does not work

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