Today is Sunday 5:32 PM. I am just so frustrated with my body and don't know what to do about it. I know I need to, (a) diet? (b)change my way of eating? (c)count carbs? (d)exercise? Do something. Hence my frustration. Remember I said before I have been dieting since I was 16? The problem with me is I can't pick any one and stick to it. I go from one diet to another, that is crazy. You would think if you find one that works you would stick to it. I lost 50 pounds on Atkins, I lost 50 pounds on weight watchers. Back in the day when they had the really good diet pills I was always small. In fact I stayed small but once i stopped taking those things, (well they stopped being available). the weight problems begun.
I hate putting clothes on these days I don't feel like I look good. My husband is a wonderful person and is so patient with me. He has never called me fat and is smart enough not to engage in conversation when I start to talk about how big and fat I am.(which I have been doing a lot lately). Weight has always been an obsession of mine, you would think I would maintain control before I get to this point.
I hit the scales every morning and every night..so you see how obsessed I am. It is miserable when you live by the scale. A scale can take over your life. I also try every diet out there but don't stick to any one long enough to make a difference.
I just got the book called "Cook Yourself Thin" once again something new and I go for it.
Well I have been looking at the recipes and find some that look like they may be good. I will try them but not sure how I will get thin by cooking.
Today I am going to make a decision and start a diet, not sure which one. I will post it tomorrow since that will be day one.
I needed to get this down and if you are reading this blog and want to comment on this feel free.