As I lay me down to sleep.

Who knew I was going to lay down Friday the 18Th and stay in bed for a week? Boy when I woke up Saturday the 19Th my day started out normal. By mid afternoon I was stuffed and the throat hurt terribly, by the late evening I knew I was dealing with something hostile. I was in bed nursing a terrible cold and thanking God it was not the swine flu. I stayed in my room so that I would not pass the germs to my Granddaughter and my mother n law who had come to visit. I ate very little mostly soup and water. I was feeling good about the fact that I could not eat since perhaps I could loose some weight. You think after all that time I might have lost some weight. Well I lost a whooping 2 pounds. I tell you the second time around is so so hard. LOL or should I say the fourth time around. Still moving on. I am better now and you bet my appetite is back.

Should I be excited?

I got on the scale this morning like I do every single morning. To my amazement I weighed in at 183.6. Should I get excited? I am afraid to I want so bad to lose some weight. I really want to lose my stomach. It is so embarrassing to me to have a stomach that makes you look like you are 6 months pregnant YUCK!. So today it is watermelon for the rest of the day and then to bed early? LOL let's see what that buys me. I bet it will gain me a pound watch.

In hiding again?

I think I spend more time hiding from the truth then facing the truth. I was not able to go to weigh in at weight watchers Saturday. I woke up and it the scale at 185. I just did not want to face them again having gained 1+lbs. This seems to be so much harder the second time around. LOL or is this my 3rd or 4Th time around? The good part and the shinning light is that I know at some point I will achieve my goal. It just is not coming fast enough for me. Tell me why I was sitting in the movies yesterday afternoon eating a large popcorn with butter? What happened to the moderation in my diet? hmm, I think there is something else going on here stopping me from staying focused.

Is that really possible????????

I can not believe it. I weighed in at weight watchers last Saturday (remember I am a lifer) , and you won't believe it but yes I did it. YUP ! weighed in at a minus? I weighed in at -.2Oz's. A victory no matter how small is a victory. I was so happy. I thought finally I was headed in the right direction and I should continue to do so. That was short lived, the holiday weekend killed me...I forgot all the rules, I did not watch what I ate. That would not have been so bad but I did not do it in moderation. So when the holiday was over and I hit the scale....oh no I cannot believe this the scale said 191...is that really possible?

4 miles in 100 minutes, are you serious?

I am serious. I really mean business this time. I am more committed to getting the steps in and eating healthy. I am eating foods that I like but they are foods that have been identified as healthy, fillers and or just plain good for you. I cannot believe that I walked 4 miles non stop but I did! Me I did it! Let me make mention here, if I have not already done so I am not alone. My husband is supporting me in this and I appreciate it. When I feel I can go no further he talks me through it. Sometimes he talks even when I don't want to hear it. And of course if you know the footprints story you know and I know that he is carrying me. It feels good to know that I am not alone.